bakejam

I intend for this post to be non-philosophical. Let's see. 😏 I missed writing yesterday, which was pretty much set as soon as I filled the morning with other things. (In the context of my just-this-week intention to write every day, and of already having a scheduled evening activity.

Being and doing (or ∞ [https://www.bakejam.com/comfort-and-intensity/] instead of "and", but I probably won't copy-paste that all the time) is a rich polarity for me right now. Doing-ness - immersed in the hamster wheel, the rat race, striving for accomplishments - has this property

I was just reading from Rob McNamara [http://www.robmcnamara.com/]'s The Elegant Self [http://www.robmcnamara.com/Books/The%20Elegant%20Self/], which I have been chewing through off-and-on for a few years. His "Dialectical Elegance" chapter dives into a bunch of polarities [https://www.ccl.

I have noticed this [https://www.google.com/search?q=site%3Abakejam.com+mask] in myself. So have others [https://twitter.com/regancodes/status/1292830995633274884]. I realize there's a nice developmental [https://medium.com/@NataliMorad/how-to-be-an-adult-kegans-theory-of-adult-development-d63f4311b553] story about why this happens! We become socialized when we insert a

Getting a bit too formal lately, for my journaling intention. You know, waiting until I have actual things to say. Pfft. That's not the way to run the idea pump! Keep those fingers moving. Drifting thoughts follow. Here's something I'd normally keep quiet for

I was talking and exploring with my friend Randy yesterday, whom I met at my first Authentic Relating [https://authenticrelating.co/] training, and there was this fantastic moment that I want to elaborate here. BTW I'll definitely recommend him as he expands his coaching/guiding practice [https://guidedbytheheart.

When I started writing about acceptance [https://www.bakejam.com/humanity-and-acceptance/] , it went in a rather philosophical direction, but I had another angle around urgency that I didn't come back to. The balance (integration of the polarity [https://www.ccl.org/articles/leading-effectively-articles/are-you-facing-a-problem-or-a-polarity/] in actuality, but hang

(To mom, upstairs) "A part of my room fell down." (To me, downstairs) "Dad you really need to come see this and it's not good." Hrm, that sounded a little more serious than the normal kid alert. Heading upstairs, I found that the double

<meta> I haven't written in a few days, and I think I worry a bit about burying the more important posts about my research project [https://www.bakejam.com/may-i-ask-you/] and motivation [https://www.bakejam.com/explaining-the-problem/] that immediately precede this one. Welp, guess that means

This is one I've wondered about for years. "Am I a hard (enough) worker?" Of course "enough" is the emotional content of that question, and it turns out that "enough" really has nothing to do with work performance, let alone the amount

In the one bit of quantified self [https://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Quantified_self] (remember when that was hot?) that I've kept up for any length of time, I subscribed to RescueTime [https://www.rescuetime.com/] in late 2008, just 1.5 years into my Tableau tenure. For

Last week, my objective was to not have an objective for the week My largest objective for the week is to write back to a lot of well-wishers from my departure Video calls are so much more fun than phone calls I'm starting regular rotating "one on

<status: wild thoughts, expressing the ineffable, writing style corrupted by Hamilton rap> I was asked what my goals are now, in fact I had a thought then, of what goals are, connect to, what lies beneath them. Most goals are dreams, visions of concrete objectives, status to reach,

I feel a bit of an impulse to polish my writing now that more people are following along. So, I'ma tell myself, "Nope!" and keep freewheeling it stream-of-consciousness style - at least for stuff tagged "journal". Not much has changed for me structurally in

It's been about 5 days now of publicizing my departure [https://www.bakejam.com/letter-of-resignation/], first internally and then externally. I've gotten the "so how does it feel?" question a few times, and interestingly since I did a lot of processing over the last

Vaguebooking for a few days, but just here to note: I'm feeling such a profound peace and lightness. Free of obligation, of old identities, of socialized constraints. Full of space, of joy, of playful excitement, of anticipation.

Some days you check every task off your list. Some days nothing is on the list. Every day, something is experienced. Some days you feel inspired and write of saving the future. Some days you just ramble to hear your own voice a bit. Every day, you think and communicate.