journal intentional personal organizing I feel a bit of an impulse to polish my writing now that more people are following along. So, I'ma tell myself, "Nope!" and keep freewheeling it stream-of-consciousness style - at least for stuff tagged "journal". Not much
journal feeling appreciated It's been about 5 days now of publicizing my departure [https://www.bakejam.com/letter-of-resignation/], first internally and then externally. I've gotten the "so how does it feel?" question a few times, and interestingly since I did a
journal feeling peaceful Vaguebooking for a few days, but just here to note: I'm feeling such a profound peace and lightness. Free of obligation, of old identities, of socialized constraints. Full of space, of joy, of playful excitement, of anticipation.
journal some days Some days you check every task off your list. Some days nothing is on the list. Every day, something is experienced. Some days you feel inspired and write of saving the future. Some days you just ramble to hear your own voice a bit.
journal riffing on deep motivations Today's version of my continuing refinements of a motivating vision. Desires/goals for an intentional social group: * being who we want to be (I) * relating and belonging more fully (we) * doing valuable work (it) * creating better systems/society for our descendants (its)
journal listening to a trigger Status: self-psychologizing, interesting mostly for the process Yesterday I was doing some Circling [http://circlingwizardry.com/what-is-circling/], which is like a blend of discussion and meditation, with random trained folks online. I was attuned to being present, and watching out for the filtering-emotional-expression-through-conscious-choice [https:
journal of-me-perception reflections I don't know of a word that's the simple mirror of "self-reflection", but I mean perceptions of me by others, as shared by them - which I was privileged to hear today, as well as last month, both
journal one sense of wrongness How big would these protests be, without the Covid-19 threat? Would they be 2x, 5x larger without epidemiological caution holding folks back? Or maybe this wouldn't have exploded in the same way, without the widespread disruption from the virus multiplying the sense
journal mourning in America Feeling sad, frustrated, conflicted. Along with the rest of Twitter: > Yesterday was the saddest day in the history of @Twitter [https://twitter.com/Twitter?ref_src=twsrc%5Etfw] pic.twitter.com/91VP3Ywtnr [https://t.co/91VP3Ywtnr] — hedonometer (@hedonometer) May 30, 2020 [https://twitter.
journal waking up and growing up Spiritual development and psychological development: engaging with the dimensional contrast of the terms waking up and growing up [https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=C0XnO-c-iAA] as used by Ken Wilbur there. Trying to record as I just heard them defined: * waking up as the
journal power and competition between metagames Today I attended "Converting Moloch from Sith to Jedi w/ Daniel Schmachtenberger" (who doesn't appear to be on Twitter but blogs at https://civilizationemerging.com/) via The Stoa [https://www.thestoa.ca/], which should show up as a video here
journal the first motivations The first group of participants will also be builders, passionate people with similar visions, eager to craft a better way. The experience needs to be rewarding, but doesn't need to be pre-crafted or conventional. What are the serious contenders for driving purpose(
journal meta-blog week 7 It has been seven weeks now since I began this practice on April 1. This will be my 42nd post in 54 days. Checking in on my hypotheses from my first post [https://www.bakejam.com/put-public-pen-to-paper/]: > I will benefit from the ritual
journal dissonance as a practice for growth I've been seeing more into the general pattern of [expanding awareness, spaciousness, complexity, development] (are we missing a word for this?) lately. * The challenge comes from a (identity/need-oriented?) dissonance arising * Two truths are in conflict with each other, they can'
journal intentionality means Intentionality implies consciousness. (of the possibility of purpose) Intentionality implies self-awareness. (of having a purpose or goal) Being intentional means doing. (pursuing that goal) Intentional purpose flows from values. Purposeful doing means integrity of values and means. Intentional self-awareness means learning. Doing is doing,
journal dandelions in a vase A friend posted a lovely picture of a dandelion bouquet from their kid. That triggered a memory, of a song that used to be one of my jams way back. I went and listened to it for the first time in years, thinking about
journal wanna hang out? I opened up this page to write, and then left it - to go invite a few friends to hang out soon, because that's what I'm wanting more than writing right now. I haven't really done that during
journal potentially false equalities Things we are "subject" to (in subject/object vocab of adult development) appear to be fixed pieces of the environment we live in, that we can't effect. In that, is a false equivalence of "X == Y" that binds
journal processing an ugh Meta: intentionally vague, sticking to my own feelings and self-analysis I received an email that induced an unpleasant sensation when I read it. A few thoughts about what produces that particular qualia. * A "ugh field" effect from the language, independent of content
journal sunday morning overdrive I sampled three different... meaning-seeking-community-gatherings (since they weren't all trying to be church services) this Sunday morning. The current very-virtual world certainly lowers engagement friction, at least. I'm not searching to find a "new church home" or "
journal open space future of work I had the pleasure of participating in the Future of Work virtual conference today, since it was not in Portland as originally planned. Open Space... I'm not going to explain it today, but it's a lot of fun and exploration;
journal fan reviewing the picard show Warning: Spoilers! If you want to watch the show Picard (Season 1) unspoiled, leave now... or carefully after the first couple paragraphs. Also, warning: fanboy television judgements, which is a million miles away from my normal style. This is not particularly edifying or enlightening
journal integrating an old shard Way back in maybe 8th grade or so, I wrote a page of thinking about my epiphany that I didn't need to be afraid. I might still have that notebook, even - I remember seeing it a few times in later years,
journal half of seven Half of seven weeks is about now - halfway through my sabbatical leave of absence. That hit me this morning as I went through my "what day is it, what week is it?" moment of orientation that has become a pandemic shower-thoughts