journal going to school from home I want to pop up and say "Hi" to keep the lights on here. This has been the first week with full school days for us, and it&
journal thoughts and feelings In which direction do our "feelings" and "thoughts" go? Yes, as it turns out "both" is the somewhat-inevitable answer, but I still thought this
journal writing and awareness This is me writing just to keep the writing and thinking flowing. I find I miss it now, if I go more than a couple days without thinking-out-loud in this
journal seeing my physical sight I am typing this using speech-to-text. The reason I'm doing so is mostly as a hypothetical exercise - What if I weren't able to use my sight as I'm accustomed to? I'm going in for a
journal considering the developmental bridge of the culture war <meta: heady sensemaking with not a lot of consideration for intelligibility, sorry> I recently read Developing ethical, social, and cognitive competence [https://vividness.live/2015/10/12/developing-ethical-social-and-cognitive-competence/
journal not my circus Did some full-(school)-day parenting the last couple days - SPS teacher/staff training has begun and we're one week out from remote school itself. It's fun for a couple days, I said, in the sense that I didn&
journal poignant hope The world is a mess, isn't it. Painful and beautiful, it's so fractally complex, so intertwined and tangled, so big, and so filtered through such limited
journal word dump Literally. Just dumping out language bits, phrases and sentences that have popped up in conversation that seem useful: * anti-tribe tribe * connecting across a different dimension * belong to each other * rewarding and nourishing time * unvillanize * unifying scope of emotional language * bridging, belonging, and building (personal
journal and now, procrastination I've been procrastinating a bit on my first official newsletter. I think it's the "writing for a new/particular audience" thing - I find
journal specificity and size The tightness or strength of a "belonging" seems to be strongly correlated to the specificity of the definition of the in-group - does that sound right? People do consider themselves parts of broad groups such as "men" or "women&
journal reaching out beyond my bubble Today I'm feeling more aware of grounding and connection of real interaction. After talking about meetings yesterday [https://www.bakejam.com/how-to-feel-about-missing-a-meeting/], I missed a meeting myself just a few hours later! 🤣 I was glad that I didn't have to
journal how to feel about missing a meeting I sent several "hey, so you missed our meeting, what next" emails this morning, catching up on my TODOs. (If you were one of them, please don't worry.) So I was just thinking about emotions and our attitudes and behaviors
journal budgeting my time and words, plus consulting I intend for this post to be non-philosophical. Let's see. 😏 I missed writing yesterday, which was pretty much set as soon as I filled the morning with other things. (In the context of my just-this-week intention to write every day, and of
journal being and doing Being and doing (or ∞ [https://www.bakejam.com/comfort-and-intensity/] instead of "and", but I probably won't copy-paste that all the time) is a rich polarity for me right now. Doing-ness - immersed in the hamster wheel, the rat race, striving
journal comfort and intensity I was just reading from Rob McNamara [http://www.robmcnamara.com/]'s The Elegant Self [http://www.robmcnamara.com/Books/The%20Elegant%20Self/], which I have been chewing through off-and-on for a few years. His "Dialectical Elegance" chapter dives into a
journal roleplaying yourself I have noticed this [https://www.google.com/search?q=site%3Abakejam.com+mask] in myself. So have others [https://twitter.com/regancodes/status/1292830995633274884]. I realize there's a nice developmental [https://medium.com/@NataliMorad/how-to-be-an-adult-kegans-theory-of-adult-development-d63f4311b553] story about why this happens! We
journal jetsam Getting a bit too formal lately, for my journaling intention. You know, waiting until I have actual things to say. Pfft. That's not the way to run the idea pump! Keep those fingers moving. Drifting thoughts follow. Here's something I&
journal leadership and dominance I was talking and exploring with my friend Randy yesterday, whom I met at my first Authentic Relating [https://authenticrelating.co/] training, and there was this fantastic moment that I want to elaborate here. BTW I'll definitely recommend him as he expands
journal urgency and acceptance When I started writing about acceptance [https://www.bakejam.com/humanity-and-acceptance/] , it went in a rather philosophical direction, but I had another angle around urgency that I didn't come back to. The balance (integration of the polarity [https://www.ccl.org/articles/
journal tools from dad (To mom, upstairs) "A part of my room fell down." (To me, downstairs) "Dad you really need to come see this and it's not good." Hrm, that sounded a little more serious than the normal kid alert. Heading
journal keeping the ink flowing <meta> I haven't written in a few days, and I think I worry a bit about burying the more important posts about my research project [https://www.bakejam.com/may-i-ask-you/] and motivation [https://www.bakejam.com/explaining-the-problem/] that immediately precede
journal okay one more viz This is one I've wondered about for years. "Am I a hard (enough) worker?" Of course "enough" is the emotional content of that question, and it turns out that "enough" really has nothing to do with
journal a decade in one viz In the one bit of quantified self [https://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Quantified_self] (remember when that was hot?) that I've kept up for any length of time, I subscribed to RescueTime [https://www.rescuetime.com/] in late 2008, just 1.5
journal little life rhythm thoughts Last week, my objective was to not have an objective for the week My largest objective for the week is to write back to a lot of well-wishers from my departure Video calls are so much more fun than phone calls I'm
journal deep goals <status: wild thoughts, expressing the ineffable, writing style corrupted by Hamilton rap> I was asked what my goals are now, in fact I had a thought then, of what goals are, connect to, what lies beneath them. Most goals are dreams, visions