James - bakejam (Page 5)

intentionality means

Intentionality implies consciousness. (of the possibility of purpose) Intentionality implies self-awareness. (of having a purpose or goal) Being intentional means doing. (pursuing that goal) Intentional purpose flows from values. Purposeful doing means integrity of values and means. Intentional self-awareness means learning. Doing is doing, not-doing is doing, being is non-doing.

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dandelions in a vase

A friend posted a lovely picture of a dandelion bouquet from their kid. That triggered a memory, of a song that used to be one of my jams way back. I went and listened to it for the first time in years, thinking about sharing it... But rather than posting

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the only covid19 solution

I sat here last night experiencing ennui, feeling sadness that I can't magically fix the US Covid19 strategy debate. The "to lockdown more, or to not" binary is frustrating to me in that people just don't see how wrong the framing is. It'

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discovering a better way 2

Attended a group discussion call today with ~20 folks in the Adult Development community - coaches, a few academics, and a few amateurs like me. One topic was really relevant for me: "In service of finding a way to help the world deal with intractable issues, how might we

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the Harvard test-trace-isolate plan

This WaPo story [https://www.washingtonpost.com/outlook/we-could-stop-the-pandemic-by-july-4-if-the-government-took-these-steps/2020/05/15/9e527370-954f-11ea-9f5e-56d8239bf9ad_story.html] is how I became aware of this release [https://ethics.harvard.edu/pandemic-resilience-supplement] of this Pandemic Resilience: Getting it Done [https://ethics.harvard.edu/files/center-for-ethics/files/roadmapsupplement_final_1.pdf] report from May 12th.

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getting underneath word traps

How much do "we" see how contextual our vocabulary is, and how much work are we willing to do to hear and understand each other? If you're in the USA and liberal, imagine a conservative says the word "rights". Or if you're

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movement thoughts

<Meta: Consolidating some bits floating in my environment - nothing novel, just integrating> I've spent the past five years doing system design involving 500-1000 people in a corporate org. I've also run a few ~30 person non-occupational groups in the last few years. And

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wanna hang out?

I opened up this page to write, and then left it - to go invite a few friends to hang out soon, because that's what I'm wanting more than writing right now. I haven't really done that during these last two months of physical

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safe enough

I believe I'm out here livejournaling because I'm in a position and space of feeling secure and safe to do so. Seems like an "obvious when said" sentence, but I'm still appreciating the newness and the (IMHO) rareness of it. Most friends

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potentially false equalities

Things we are "subject" to (in subject/object vocab of adult development) appear to be fixed pieces of the environment we live in, that we can't effect. In that, is a false equivalence of "X == Y" that binds the moveable thing to some other

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processing an ugh

Meta: intentionally vague, sticking to my own feelings and self-analysis I received an email that induced an unpleasant sensation when I read it. A few thoughts about what produces that particular qualia. * A "ugh field" effect from the language, independent of content * why? "false front" effect

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linked polarities

Meta: This is note-taking level scribbling.

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permission for you to

What would it feel really good to have permission to do, or to do as much or as often as you wanted to? I mean "feel really good" in an integrated, holistic way, not like a vice that the larger you would regret, but rather feeling into the

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sunday morning overdrive

I sampled three different... meaning-seeking-community-gatherings (since they weren't all trying to be church services) this Sunday morning. The current very-virtual world certainly lowers engagement friction, at least. I'm not searching to find a "new church home" or "fit" inside of a Christian

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open space future of work

I had the pleasure of participating in the Future of Work virtual conference today, since it was not in Portland as originally planned. Open Space... I'm not going to explain it today, but it's a lot of fun and exploration; you should try one if you

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fan reviewing the picard show

Warning: Spoilers! If you want to watch the show Picard (Season 1) unspoiled, leave now... or carefully after the first couple paragraphs. Also, warning: fanboy television judgements, which is a million miles away from my normal style. This is not particularly edifying or enlightening - just me ranting. I don&

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integrating an old shard

Way back in maybe 8th grade or so, I wrote a page of thinking about my epiphany that I didn't need to be afraid. I might still have that notebook, even - I remember seeing it a few times in later years, which is probably why that memory

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spiral dynamics and covid-19

* Red wants to blame Bill Gates, China, or the CIA for creating the virus * Blue wants to see the virus as God's judgement on the nations * Orange wants to calculate the QALYs and variolate the young * Green wants to save all lives through lockdown plus basic income * Yellow.

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name this peopleish designy skill

What is the best name for the skill of finding effective and elegant solutions inside a complex space that mostly involve social/organizational constructs? Constructs there include processes, practices, authority, responsibilities, decision-making definitions, agreements, incentives. Social/organizational could be large or small corporate, or any type of organization. Examples: * "

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discovering a better way

One of my recurring existential problem solving spaces is bouncing around in my head, so I'm just going to wander around in it. This is not guaranteed to be useful or coherent to anyone else. The locus of this space is designing a social organization that would be

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sketchy seroprevalence studies

I believe that the Santa Clara (Stanford) and the LA County (USC) studies getting so much news the last few days are both pretty junky and should not be used as evidence of anything in particular. There's a lot of data around the world pointing to about a

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half of seven

Half of seven weeks is about now - halfway through my sabbatical leave of absence. That hit me this morning as I went through my "what day is it, what week is it?" moment of orientation that has become a pandemic shower-thoughts ritual. To be honest, it'

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control, tragedy, and reality

A friend's prompt: "what is it about a national tragedy that brings out the worst in some? It strikes me enough in this moment to say, "yeah, that's it exactly, that's why". Because it's tragic and it's

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350 knocks

Did one last session canvassing my neighborhood for northcrownhill.com today, reaching 97% attempted-contact after about a month of sporadic door-knocking. To turn around, look backwards, and realize (whoa, I did that 350+ times) is kinda cool. The join rate for the people I've talked to so far

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helpless to help from a distance

In the past 24 hours I was sworn at and insulted by by two separate people. Just in textual form, by near-strangers, no relationship at risk, nothing at stake for me. I'd momentarily appreciate how much I have internalized "their words and expressions have no bearing on